Have you ever felt like you will never truly amount to anything???
Sometimes I do. Sometimes I feel like all I will ever be is an unemployed-never having any money-never finishing college-never having all i've ever dreamed or desired-no good-nothing.
I know I know many of you are saying. "But you are able to be so inspiring and give great advice" and some of you may call me a liar.
But..
Am I liar?
No
Am I a hypocrite?
Maybe.
Its always easier to be there for someone else who is in need. Its always easier to be inspiring and help others to get back on their feet and believing in themselves. But its not always easy when that person is you.
You don't want to go spilling your issues on others because you don't want to seem needy or incapable of handling your own problems because then those that you give advice to would think that your words are worthless if you yourself can't live up to your advice. But the fact that I sometimes cannot keep my own head up does not mean that my advice is any less valid.
Its really tough and sometimes just unbearable, and please don't misunderstand me I am not a depressed individual. I'm just confessing my blues. Some days are easy while others are hard and today is just one of those days an unemployed girl goes through.lol. I'm starting to think that maybe I should change the name of this blog to Confessions of an Unemployed 21yr old. I might just do that. WAIT.!!!!!! I'm getting off topic.
The point is I feel like I'm wasting my days and I need to turn it around. I'm should start making a day-to-day itinerary so that I have things to do to keep my mind occupied until I get a job. But for now I guess my dreams will have to wait.
Any Ideas???
2 comments:
i have a thought. maybe you should just take things one step at a time. the things you desire most should be what keeps you motivated and happy to keep you on an emotionlly stable and steady path to your own success. some white guy wrote in a book "stay focused on what your good at" your weakness are always gonna eat at you if you dwell on them. i sympathize totally with what your feeling because i'm in a similar situation that gets me feeling down too. but i just try to get real deep into my feelings and grab those few that bother me and take them and put them in storage for when i really need to use them. just keep my head up and listen to some music for a while.
Hey, we all go through times of feeling like you were created to do more, like you're waisting time, etc. Thats b/c you are...ur created by God to be more than mediocre. Sometimes we get overwhelmed by the dreams and visions He has placed on the inside of you, and have no clue how to get there. What He is saying is just do what you know to do in the natural and I'll put my super on top of it. Just keep moving forward and he'll guide you along the way. The steps of the righteous are ordered by God, not the standing still and waiting. Its much easier for Him to steer a moving vehichle than one at a standstill. The hand of the diligent maketh rich. Your dreams are not going to magically happen, so give God something to work with and let Him finish the rest. My mantra is Work Hard/Pray Hard!
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