Til a Wasteful September

So yesterday I got an earful from my Grandmother. She was going on about how I should be disgusted and shouldn't be happy with where I am in life, and in my mind I'm saying that I'm not excited about where I'm currently at but I'm not emotionally destroyed.

Truth is that stuff happens.

Stuff that cannot always be controlled or foreseen. It just happens. I am a 21yr old who is currently unemployed and broke.

I can't afford to pay more than two bills every two weeks
Bill Breakdown Car note 125.28 bi-weekly
Car insurance 200.00 monthly
Cell phone 100.00 monthly
Rent 540.00 monthly-to be further discussed
Bank Account 400.00-
Gas 40 bi-weekly
Electric 80
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Total 1,250.56 monthly excluding bank account

I can't afford to pay to go to iPOP. iPOP is the International Presentation of Performers. It's a casting convention held twice a year where a selected amount get to showcase there talent of acting, modeling, singing, or dancing in front of the top casting directors and agents of the country. Many people that you see on tv (Doug Brochu-Sonny with a Chance and iCarly) and in movies (Josh Duhamel-Transformers and Ashton Kutcher) have been discovered there. I'm scheduled to go in January 2010 to the one in Los Angeles but in order for me to go it will cost $3,900. Unfortunatel I don't have that money and as discussed in the previous post I'm still working on that. In all the excitement of hearing that I was chosen (back when I had a job) I bought the airline tickets, but the airline told me that if I make any changes to the flight then they will charge me $100 and they cannot refund my tickets so right now i've got tickets to go to LA in January but I still don't have the money for iPOP. But still with no luck yet of getting a job or the money to go I have high hopes because I was meant to be something great and to do wonderful things and I know that I will make it to the top.

I can't afford to pay my rent. My rent is $540 a month. Believe me I know "What a Bargain" but now that i'm unemployed its "What a Burden". They are threatening to evict me but even though I have already successfully moved out they were telling me that i'm still gonna be responsible for a 12-month lease. What is a broke and unemployed girl to do???

I bet you're asking "If this is what you can't afford then what can you afford?" I can afford enough groceries to hold me over til the next unemployment check, I can afford to pay two bills each check, and I can afford to buy gas. I think that's about it though, atleast for now anyway. :)