I am a very emotional person who definitely has an overly exaggerated perception. I need to relax my mind but i'm just so anxious. I want it all and I want it now. I don't really take defeat all that well but they say that admittance is the first step... I am unemployed and although I enjoyed it for a while and from time to time I still do, I feel like it is time for that to end. I need a job and I'm at the point that I don't care if it is a "regular" working job or if it is the opportunity to make my dreams come true. Maybe I should stop dreaming, or maybe I shouldn't all I know is that I'm in a little funk right now and until my love comes home from a hard day's work I feel alone. I miss having my family around no matter how crazy or dramatic some of them can be and I miss having good friends. Everyone is so wrapped up in their own that they have forgotten me and left me behind. I don't care if you think that I am whining, I need to be honest. I miss doing random stupid things like going to the mall just to try on clothes and take pics of them and put them on Facebook, I miss driving around at night and going to random drive thrus and pretending that I'm different people, and I miss going to the movies and seeing movies that I really want to see despite the date that they came out or the age group that they are targeting. You know whoever said that it is time for you to grow up did not mean to stop living and to stop doing the things that make you happy. And it is not that I can't be alone or that I can't do these things on my own, because I love myself, I love who I am and despite things that I may say from time to time I wouldn't change a thing. But lets face it you can only do things alone so many times and I don't mean in the aspect of love/boyfriend because that department is perfection, but I mean in the aspect of having a group of friends who just want to live and have genuine sincere fun. Nothing wild, nothing crazy at least not yet anyways. ;-)
Au Revoir
Until next time...
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