Just keep swimming! Just keep swimming! What do we do? We Swim...

The one thing that I have to learn over and over again is that you will always find a million reasons why you should not, but you have to look for the one reason why you should. It's kind of become my mantra.

Unfortunately for me sometimes I'm kind of cautious. I take my time and go through a lot of reasons why not...
"It doesn't look right"
 "I should have done it differently"
 "Maybe I should do it over again"...

But I did it! I finally did it!

After another long while I took a risk and put myself out there and one day I will take the world by storm.

I can't promise that I will proceed without hesitation but I can promise that I will do my best to keep pressing forward.

Now what does that say about you? Are you standing around waiting for your life to improve?!
Are you sitting around hoping that the sun will shine?!

Sometimes YOU have to get on a ladder and move all of the clouds over just so that you can see the sun.

Sometimes YOU have to be the one to make your own future. DON'T wait for someone to make that decision for you. DON'T wait for someone else to give you that chance. Whether it be in life, love, or having your dreams come true. Do what you can to make them happen on your own.

Write your own destiny and...

Keep it Dory my friends.

Ever hear the humming bird crow?

My heart, My mind, and My soul can never be at a standstill.
They must be in constant motion in order to avoid the tide.
I must not fall.
I must not drown.
I must continue on...
Thoughts of consideration will try to hold on
But what is being held at stake?
Is it you? Is it them?
Is it your heart? Is it your soul?
Are you denying yourself your rightful place at the throne of happiness?
Will you let your soul die so the mindset of another can be at peace?...
Or will you whisk yourself away like a breeze in the wind and fly far far away from here?
Don't think that just because You flew away that it is a tragedy, because the truth is that you were brave. You made a difficult decision in the face of darkness and saw it through to the end. But remember brave does not mean perfect so expect mistakes along the way.

Please Mr. Hummingbird sing me a song.
So that I can know which way is wrong.
I don't care for the length,
How short or how long
So please Mr. Hummingbird,
Please sing me that song.

Life would be so much easier if you can get a peek at where a decision will lead you. If you knew what exactly would happen if you took this right turn here or made the left instead.

I won't say I'm not brave because that's not true I am. I've made very difficult decisions in the past and I've made it for the better because of that but that doesn't mean that I don't have fear.
I'm afraid of regret.
I hate it!
I hate it!
I hate it! Like a child stomping its feet.
I hate the feeling of realizing that you made the wrong choice. I really don't know why I hate it but all I know is that I have a certain kind of disdain for even the idea of it.

The taste of regret is one of loathsome proportions and I dare not partake.

If you quit now then you were never meant to get it in the first place.

I am a very emotional person who definitely has an overly exaggerated perception. I need to relax my mind but i'm just so anxious. I want it all and I want it now. I don't really take defeat all that well but they say that admittance is the first step... I am unemployed and although I enjoyed it for a while and from time to time I still do, I feel like it is time for that to end. I need a job and I'm at the point that I don't care if it is a "regular" working job or if it is the opportunity to make my dreams come true. Maybe I should stop dreaming, or maybe I shouldn't all I know is that I'm in a little funk right now and until my love comes home from a hard day's work I feel alone. I miss having my family around no matter how crazy or dramatic some of them can be and I miss having good friends. Everyone is so wrapped up in their own that they have forgotten me and left me behind. I don't care if you think that I am whining, I need to be honest. I miss doing random stupid things like going to the mall just to try on clothes and take pics of them and put them on Facebook, I miss driving around at night and going to random drive thrus and pretending that I'm different people, and I miss going to the movies and seeing movies that I really want to see despite the date that they came out or the age group that they are targeting. You know whoever said that it is time for you to grow up did not mean to stop living and to stop doing the things that make you happy. And it is not that I can't be alone or that I can't do these things on my own, because I love myself, I love who I am and despite things that I may say from time to time I wouldn't change a thing. But lets face it you can only do things alone so many times and I don't mean in the aspect of love/boyfriend because that department is perfection, but I mean in the aspect of having a group of friends who just want to live and have genuine sincere fun. Nothing wild, nothing crazy at least not yet anyways. ;-)

Au Revoir

Until next time...