Just keep swimming! Just keep swimming! What do we do? We Swim...

The one thing that I have to learn over and over again is that you will always find a million reasons why you should not, but you have to look for the one reason why you should. It's kind of become my mantra.

Unfortunately for me sometimes I'm kind of cautious. I take my time and go through a lot of reasons why not...
"It doesn't look right"
 "I should have done it differently"
 "Maybe I should do it over again"...

But I did it! I finally did it!

After another long while I took a risk and put myself out there and one day I will take the world by storm.

I can't promise that I will proceed without hesitation but I can promise that I will do my best to keep pressing forward.

Now what does that say about you? Are you standing around waiting for your life to improve?!
Are you sitting around hoping that the sun will shine?!

Sometimes YOU have to get on a ladder and move all of the clouds over just so that you can see the sun.

Sometimes YOU have to be the one to make your own future. DON'T wait for someone to make that decision for you. DON'T wait for someone else to give you that chance. Whether it be in life, love, or having your dreams come true. Do what you can to make them happen on your own.

Write your own destiny and...

Keep it Dory my friends.

Ever hear the humming bird crow?

My heart, My mind, and My soul can never be at a standstill.
They must be in constant motion in order to avoid the tide.
I must not fall.
I must not drown.
I must continue on...
Thoughts of consideration will try to hold on
But what is being held at stake?
Is it you? Is it them?
Is it your heart? Is it your soul?
Are you denying yourself your rightful place at the throne of happiness?
Will you let your soul die so the mindset of another can be at peace?...
Or will you whisk yourself away like a breeze in the wind and fly far far away from here?
Don't think that just because You flew away that it is a tragedy, because the truth is that you were brave. You made a difficult decision in the face of darkness and saw it through to the end. But remember brave does not mean perfect so expect mistakes along the way.

Please Mr. Hummingbird sing me a song.
So that I can know which way is wrong.
I don't care for the length,
How short or how long
So please Mr. Hummingbird,
Please sing me that song.

Life would be so much easier if you can get a peek at where a decision will lead you. If you knew what exactly would happen if you took this right turn here or made the left instead.

I won't say I'm not brave because that's not true I am. I've made very difficult decisions in the past and I've made it for the better because of that but that doesn't mean that I don't have fear.
I'm afraid of regret.
I hate it!
I hate it!
I hate it! Like a child stomping its feet.
I hate the feeling of realizing that you made the wrong choice. I really don't know why I hate it but all I know is that I have a certain kind of disdain for even the idea of it.

The taste of regret is one of loathsome proportions and I dare not partake.

If you quit now then you were never meant to get it in the first place.

I am a very emotional person who definitely has an overly exaggerated perception. I need to relax my mind but i'm just so anxious. I want it all and I want it now. I don't really take defeat all that well but they say that admittance is the first step... I am unemployed and although I enjoyed it for a while and from time to time I still do, I feel like it is time for that to end. I need a job and I'm at the point that I don't care if it is a "regular" working job or if it is the opportunity to make my dreams come true. Maybe I should stop dreaming, or maybe I shouldn't all I know is that I'm in a little funk right now and until my love comes home from a hard day's work I feel alone. I miss having my family around no matter how crazy or dramatic some of them can be and I miss having good friends. Everyone is so wrapped up in their own that they have forgotten me and left me behind. I don't care if you think that I am whining, I need to be honest. I miss doing random stupid things like going to the mall just to try on clothes and take pics of them and put them on Facebook, I miss driving around at night and going to random drive thrus and pretending that I'm different people, and I miss going to the movies and seeing movies that I really want to see despite the date that they came out or the age group that they are targeting. You know whoever said that it is time for you to grow up did not mean to stop living and to stop doing the things that make you happy. And it is not that I can't be alone or that I can't do these things on my own, because I love myself, I love who I am and despite things that I may say from time to time I wouldn't change a thing. But lets face it you can only do things alone so many times and I don't mean in the aspect of love/boyfriend because that department is perfection, but I mean in the aspect of having a group of friends who just want to live and have genuine sincere fun. Nothing wild, nothing crazy at least not yet anyways. ;-)

Au Revoir

Until next time...

RAWHIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do you ever feel like you just want to run as fast as you can???

Not in any particular direction.

Just fast enough that you can feel the winds of freedom blow through your hair.

Not because you are being abused or being chased by a flesh eating zombie. But because you just want to breathe.

You give so much of yourself to so many different people that when you look down you realize that none of what you see is what you want.

It's time for you.

It's time for you.

It's time for you.

Sometimes we wait for someone else to give us a chance, or the opportunity to leave it all behind.

But maybe it is you who has to open that door for yourself.

Maybe you were destined to free yourself.

You can't always wait for the sun to rise. Sometimes you have to get in the chariot yourself and ride.

RAWHIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Try me on for size

Sometimes I wonder why people can't be more like me...


Now wait a minute before you get all "OMG she is so self-absorbed!!!"...


I just wish people tried to be more understanding and empathetic. I spend ALL day being understanding to other people and the way they feel and the way they think and the way they are, but sometimes I wish people did the same for me. I wish people took the time to sit and think. "Yeah she is going through the same thing that I am so shouldn't throw all of my negativity onto her, instead I should try to figure out what I can do in order to make this situation better for all of us."


But do you know the problem with that thought process??? ...

No body is thinking about understanding one another.


Everybody is only thinking of themselves and how they can help make their own situation better. If you get frustrated about something that you did and you are in a room with other people, don't sit there and ruin it for the others. Remember that you are not the only person in the room, or the house, or at the job, or in the county, or the country, or in the world.


Understand that there are billions of people around you with different stories, issues, and problems. And although I'm not asking you to do everything you can in order to make all of those people feel better about their days. I am asking you to be more considerate of how they may feel when you shut off the TV while they are in the room just because your're mad, or when you complain to them about the decisions being made(or not being made) when everyone in the building is under the same fate, or even when you openly scold them when they are doing their job of advising you to do something to improve your performance.


Understand that supervisors, co-workers, and girlfriends are just another name for a certain group of People. And People have feelings too.